Dumpling Sister's Thoughts on Life
10.3.2006 Topic: You and I (Chinese Version)
You said you are tired, felt that you have no strength to love another person. I see that you are very analytically explaining things, saying that love between lovers is just feeling with emotion, love between family members is feeling with a house, friendship is feeling with help. So i asked you back, what is just feeling. You said feeling is just a simple liking.
It seems that life is like a math equation, we have things we need to attend to, i.e. getting married buy a house, pay bills and raise kids, I need not say more i am sure you understand the implication in my response. When I was still young yet my face showed unmatched maturity, my fear was already very deep. I have thought that life is just a line connecting point A to point B, with some detours in the middle. Until later I have stopped trying to reason with it, though I still have sometimes try.
I see a disappointed you, i wanted to say something, do something, but i can only be speechless.
I felt that life is without choice, growing up is lonely, we are all individual entities. Often times we embrace hope yet get hurt, when the glass ball in ourselves falls on the floor and shatters, the breaking is almost unbearable, wants to cry, so I asked, can you catch up with me. Why is it like that?
When the rain stops we are brave again, trying to do our things. But behind each brave back is a vulnerable self, you and I.