Dumpling Sister

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6.10.2007   After     (Chinese Version)


The footprint left is still fresh and leads the way to which direction to take. I can conclude that they haven’t gone far, and I continue to closely follow them as I also sense that there are still people tracing my path. It is spring time and the grass is green, but I am under no mood to enjoy the nature; I can only keep tracing after them.

As I continue to walk, I finally come to this small restaurant and order some small dish. I count my silver coins and notice I still have enough. I order a bowl of noodle and some tea water. The sun hasn’t risen to its highest, the drew is just being evaporated, while I wait for the noodle I inquire the cashier if the people I am after have been seen by him. He said he has seen them since they have just passed by about half incense’s worth of time. (Note: This was how Ancient Chinese tell them, by how many incense sticks are burned.) I ponder if I should go after them, but my better judgment convinces me otherwise. Who knows when is my next stop, so I better stuff myself up first. So I hurry and finish the food and continue the chase. I know I have to chase after them, that this is my calling, however, who are they?

I shake my head and can’t recall who could be so important and worthy of my time? It doesn’t matter, I say to myself, with their footsteps I believe I can find the answers I need.

The sweats run across my face but I can keep wiping it off. My sleeves are torn but it doesn’t bother me. I see an old woman carrying water buckets on a stick put across her shoulder approaching towards me. She too says that there are people in front of me and their leg strength is incredible, and I may have some tough time keeping up with them.

It doesn’t matter. I shift and control my breathing, and speed up my foot work. The trees along this mountain road are scarce and can’t block that baking sun above. I start to feel my stress. I have been after them for days and nights now, yet I still can’t catch any glimpse of them. I have been asking about them along the way; however, no one could tell me who they are, and not to mention I still don’t have an exact head count.

I don’t understand who they are and why I should be chasing them with all my might. Is it true that once I catch up with them, I can find out the bits and pieces of the entire matter? I hope as I say to myself.

Is this a dream? I can’t wake up. All I know is that my entire focus has been about trying to catching up with that whoever, who just happens to have a quicker foot step. Yet one after one, I keep missing this person or persons. I don’t want to give up. I have been walking for so many days and nights, yet I still haven’t seen anybody in my sight. All I know is the vague description from the locals.

Damn, that kind of intel is this?

As I continue to drill on this, I notice I have gotten even angrier. Why should I chase after these people with my strength almost drained? Who is worth my while? And who is this person? I feel my drenched shirt, and start to notice a small yet firm desperate thought, a giving up thought, within my deepest soul.

I can feel my tears.

I start to know that once this thought of giving up blooms within me, it will eventually conquer my rationale. Therefore, I loose my fists, because it is pointless to hold on. I have become very predictable of this course of happening, as if it has happen many times before.

Therefore, this being a dream or not, is not important, because I have been once again overcome, without any winning bids, and all this leaves me unaware and unknown.






6.10.2007   After

4.22.2007   Sorrow

4.2.2007   The Story About Her

3.20.2007   Traveling South

3.07.2007  Thoughts

2.20.2007  Shanghai

2.4.2007  Belief

1.17.2007  House

1.7.2007  Winter Melon Mom

1.1.2007  Blue Sky

12.22.2006  Card

12.14.2006  Grandpa

12.08.2006  Returning

11.23.2006  At a Corner

11.18.2006  Taiwan Trip

11.15.2006  Age

11.7.2006  Still Sick

11.4.2006  Getting Sick

10.31.2006  Running

10.22.2006  Grandmother's Jacket

10.13.2006 Is It?

10.6.2006   Mid Autumn

10.3.2006   You and I




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鍋貼妹妹目前住在非常陽光耀人(註﹕會烤焦人)的德州首府﹐但是三不兩時會跑休士頓﹐為生計為朋友更為中國城好吃的商店 (註﹕我來了﹗)。


平時的重大事情就是看電視吃飯﹐偶而從事不良愛好﹐但絕對是整天掛在電腦上﹐尤其是跟冬瓜媽媽閑聊 ﹐小至吃飯吃什麼大至國家大勢﹐股票上市